Fly the nest

I am here AGAIN..

Today is a really big day for me – currently flying the nest. It’s not the first time I am doing it, but it is the first time I am leaving parents’ home with the idea to build the home of my own. A home with my love.

Today is the first time when my leaving is not so sad for me like it has been before. I did hold back tears, but it wasn’t hard and I am actually so thankful and full of excitement. Some feelings inside are saying that this must be the right thing to do.

I guess it is a perfect day to try again doing something I love – writing. I have tried and tried and stopped and I have given up many times on blogging. I never had the right life or the right feeling or the final reason was – I was/seemed too negative.

My goal with this blog is to keep it above negative, it does not mean I won’t use words like – depression, crying, feeling sad, lonely etc. Bad is half of the good. It grows us and to accept it, it is the only way to learn from it.

Being without any sharing social media or family/friends close by for even a little time, made me realize how much I actually enjoy sharing. I don’t want my blog to be a sob-corner, so I will seriously write here about everything that helps me grow (even if it was bad, I will write how it helped me and I won’t make it something to feel sorry for). I will write here about new things I learn and achieve because the day I learned about the taste of an avocado I SERIOUSLY WANTED TO SCREAM TO THE WHOLE WORLD HOW GOOD IT IS. Or the day I did a handstand for 5 seconds for the first time. I wanted to share my happiness that something so amazing happened in my life.

Yes, that is how extra I am. Being that extra is hard work because when you feel happy so strongly you also feel the bad so strongly and falling into the sad is so much easier. Just because in my last blog I fell into the negativity I was afraid to write again for months. Now I feel strong enough to face my weakness and to give everything from myself to write here about little good things in life. And also big. But size doesn’t matter right. Matters the way one takes it.

Because every good thing has something bad and another way around. Every good thing can be turned upside down and the same way with the bad.

Now here I am trying to keep the good alive and the bad better. Making Matu.